Post by Orianna Èirigh on Oct 31, 2023 23:10:59 GMT
Taking place after ‘A Glimpse of the Past’ — Henri, Orianna & Archie
🌟 Cowritten with the infinitely wonderful Gerhard 🌟
🌟 Cowritten with the infinitely wonderful Gerhard 🌟
You’re waiting for a train. A train that will take you far away…
She swims up. Or what she thinks is up. It’s hard to tell direction in this ocean of dreams, memories, and nightmares. But she has finally been let free of it, for now, she hopes. Or perhaps there was a noise. The sound of a door opening. Or was it the ringing of silver, marble, and mist. The ever familiar sounds she associates with the rock that grounds her. Her imi-ib. Gerhard.
Groggily, Orianna rolls over in their bed just as a weight settles behind her and so it feels like she is falling again. There’s a moment of suspended weightlessness as she comes fully awake. Then, her bleary eyes open.
“Welcome home, imi-ib.”
“Mmm. Thank you.” The weight shifts as Gerhard pulls himself closer to her, an arm reaching around her waist to anchor himself in the night. He breathes in, and out, slowly, settling into the curves of her. “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to wake you.”
“S’fine,” she mumbles. Dawn is two hours away. Has she really slept so long already? A pang of guilt jabs at her gut which makes Orianna shift uncomfortably. She wasn’t ready to face him yet, couldn’t bring herself to show him the change in her and so instead settled on a slightly adjacent topic.
“You came back sooner than you normally do. I’m glad.”
His face buries itself in her neck, her long hair mixing with his own as he breathes deep, drinks plentifully from the well of her, and sighs. “Mm. Did I? Well, you know I don’t like being gone for long.”
His hands wander across her, softly caressing each curve, each bend in her rivers.
They pause for a moment.
A breath.
And they continue on.
Gerhard knows the topography of her form, the distance between the peak and valley of his love’s hips, waist, back, tail. But something feels off. He must be more tired than he thought. Retracing their journey, his hands go back to the start, paying more attention to what they pass over. It is gradual, but the metaphor that comes to mind is that of a hill that has changed the curve of its slope, as if the dirt underneath has been moved by… something. The abrasion of a cliff against the buffeting of a breeze that has seen its passing less often than it has actually been there. Such changes happen gradually over years, but there is a difference here that is unfamiliar to him, a change of softness that is felt in a more aged landscape.
A pit grows in his stomach, an aching void of despair that whispers in his ears, claws at his heart, tells him that his greatest fear has come to pass: You were gone too long, it tells him. She has passed you by.
He knows it cannot be true. The flower he brought her from the blessed fields of Elysium still rests in its fluted glass, wilting from the sun passage of days, not years.
But still he must ask, if only to calm his thumping heart.
“Imi-ib? H-how long was I gone?”
“A-a day? I think,” she says, voice cracking a little. Orianna hated that. “Maybe a little more than a day since you left before I woke up,” she hastens to add.
It feels like she’s running a marathon yet she hasn’t moved. She has to tell him. But how do you say what you know will break your heart all over again?
“A day?” His hands stop moving, choosing instead to hold on tight as though she were caught in a storm, as if the changes would continue and he the only bulwark.
The changes are subtle, but his map of her was total and complete. It was inked atop nights like this, their two forms intertwined. It was dusted and signed and committed to memory in the starlight of their love.
And now it no longer fit.
“Orianna? Your heart, are you... a day? You’re sure?”
“I am sure. Only a day has passed here on the Material Plane.”
She takes a deep breath in. It was time. She had to tell him.
“I went to the Plane of Time in search of Throdrazz’s key with some of the others. When we came back, something was different.”
Orianna takes Gerhard’s hand from her side and sits up. Her hair is tangled around her horns but he can just see her neck. It’s slimmer, rising up to a jaw that is more defined, sharper. In the soft glow coming through the window from the lamplight and starlight outside, she looks over her shoulder, eyes cast down.
Then her gaze lifts up, and he sees.
“Six years,” she says.
Gerhard sits up, slowly, his eyes searching wildly. “Six- six years?”
His hand rises too, tentatively, anxiously, before resting softly on her cheek. It’s clear enough, now, in the dim light of the pre-dawn, that his heart skips a beat.
“Oh, imi-ib…” His eyes begin to well, and his hand trembles. “Oh, my love…”
Feeling him shake breaks the damn. Clutching, grasping, dragging Gerhard closer, Orianna buries her head into the small of his neck, seeking forgiveness and solace in his embrace like she never had before. Through the waterfall, she repeats how sorry she is, as many times as there are stars alive in the sky. She didn’t know. It’s her fault. She should have been more prepared. It was risky and foolish and this is the end result. Time stolen from them.
“Shhh. It’s okay, imi-ib. It’s not your fault. You couldn’t have known.” Gerhard repeats the refrain over and over again, until the words have lost nearly all meaning, becoming a steady hum, a prayer to whichever gods might be listening.
He pulls at her, grasping her tightly, afraid to let go for even a moment.
Gerhard kept saying she couldn’t have known, but part of her did know. She had been fortunate with the return of her fathers, both safe and sound. She had accepted the mantle of being Stellarum’s Herald and nothing had been taken for those vows given. Something was due, the scales of want and need demanded it. It wasn’t cruel or mean, it was just how it was meant to go.
That didn’t make this any easier for her though.
“Can you forgive me? “Will you stay, be here with me, even though I am older and closer to…” The rush of a river crashes through their hearing, even though nothing changes in the stillness of their room. “…to the end?”
Gently, Gerhard pulls back until he is facing her, until their eyes meet. Some things never change: the whisper of a lover under the sheets; the gentle touch with only the stars to witness; the gaze of a beloved, their eyes still as full and as bright as the day they first fell upon this soul that still feels as though they are the luckiest to ever walk this plane.
Gerhard rests his forehead on Orianna’s own, her horns nestling themselves in his chestnut hair. Tears dampen his cheeks, but he does not wipe them for fear of letting go.
“Th-there is nothing that could wrest me from you, no… no force devised by man nor god that could keep me from you, Orianna.” He tilts his head, placing a soft kiss upon her lips. “I am yours. And I will follow you wherever you may go.”