Post by Zola Rhomdaen on Aug 29, 2022 9:24:22 GMT
“In that part of the book of my memory before which little can be read, there is a heading, which says: ‘Incipit vita nova: Here begins the new life.’”
—Dante Alighieri, La Vita Nuova
In the mid-afternoon summer sun, Velania’s lunar, silvery aura is all but absent. Wearing a loose-fitting tunic dress, dark purple with embroidered pink flowers on the hems, her face is slightly sunburnt with a hint of freckles, and her usually immaculate hair is tousled and pulled up into a messy bun. She has a basket of wildflowers on her arm with one of them poked into her hair.
She sees Zola approaching the temple from a distance, in her usual sleeveless white dress and The Twins strapped around her waist, and breaks into a large grin, waving enthusiastically.
“Wow, Velania!” Zola exclaims when she gets closer. “You look great! You look so… relaxed!”
“Haha!” She hugs Zola tightly. “I don’t have many duties this week, so I’ve been out of the city this morning, looking for some flowers. I found a nice creek to explore and I had a swim, and then I sat under a tree for breakfast, and then I… Oh wait, this is for you…” She pulls out a stunning white-and-pink poppy and leans over to place it in Zola’s hair, who grins happily at this new adornment. “It’s so good to see you! Yes, I’ve been relaxing a bit. It’s been the right time of year to get outside, so I’ve been making the most of it.” She takes Zola by the hands. “Zola, how have you been?”
“Oh me?” The drow woman tilts her head up skywards and lets out a big, dramatic half-sigh, half-groan. “Just when I thought my life is calming down, things are starting to get crazy again!”
Velania’s face falls gently. “Oh, no. Sounds like we should get the kettle on and sit down somewhere quiet.”
It’s a quiet time of day inside the Temple of Selûne, and the hallways are cool and calm. Velania leads Zola to her chamber, making small talk about the flowers she’s collected, and Zola occupies her hands with making a flower braid as they wait for the water to boil. After ten minutes, the kettle is whistling merrily.
“There’s a necromancer wandering around the Witching Court and the Dawnlands causing trouble,” Zola says as she picks up the kettle and starts pouring water into the teacups she prepared for them, “and she’s probably a lich by now, too.”
“What kind of trouble? Are people in danger?” Velania frowns at her friend. “I’d heard vague talk of some kind of prophecy about the undead, but I didn’t realise it was already taking effect… But the Witching Court is a powerful, resourceful place. I’ve seen their power in action. Queen Nicnevin must know how to handle an incursion, surely…”
“Oh, the Queen’s people are handling it for sure. But I heard the necromancer’s also been spotted here in Daring Heights. At the cemetery.”
Velania sits up. Alert. “So we have to defend ourselves again…” she mutters. “If Rholor were back, he would know how to handle the undead, I’m certain of it… but he’s still…”
Zola puts the kettle away and sits back down next to Velania by the table. “He’s still not back, huh? I wonder what’s causing him to take his time…”
“Je’Sathriel made it sound like he was choosing to take it slow, didn’t he? I don’t understand the process — perhaps it’s particularly difficult to have one’s body remade, for all I know?”
“Oh, did you hear that Silvia’s back? And it happened in, like, an instant.” Zola snaps her fingers for effect. “… kind of.”
Velania’s jaw drops. “She’s back? But… Do you know how?”
“So you really haven’t heard? She was resurrected! Apparently Je’Sathriel gathered up the most powerful mages in the Dawnlands and Sorrel and they got her soul back and a new body for her.”
“I’ve been a bit out of contact for a couple of weeks.” Velania flushes. Then starts blinking tears away. “I don’t know what to say. That’s… that’s… I owe her and Sorrel a visit,” she says, more solidly.
Zola gives her a kind, gentle smile. “Yeah, I think you should go and visit them in their house,” she says, giving her friend’s shoulder a squeeze.
Velania’s voice trembles and she speaks absent-mindedly. “I’ve needed my own time. My own space. But it means you miss the important things…” She turns to Zola and smiles faintly. “Yes, I’ll go see her as soon as possible.”
“Oh Velania.” Zola’s arms move to wrap around her shoulders. “Don’t scold yourself for that. Sorrel and Silvia would never blame you for taking time for yourself.”
Velania leans into the hug. “I thought it had just been a few days, but the last time I saw her was when I saw you. And that was… Oh wow, that was a whole month ago.”
“Time flies! But hey, this time off has done wonders for you, Vee.” Zola takes the finished flower braid and crowns it on Velania’s silver-haired head, smiling brightly.
Velania smiles back at her. “It’s a slow process. I’ve had some good days and some bad days. And I guess that’s going to continue for a while. Sometimes it hits you when you least expect it, and you don’t really understand what triggered it.” Zola nods furtively in agreement. “Today’s been a good day, though. Despite the fact that I’m a bit tearful at your news.”
She sits back and studies Zola a moment, scrutinising her expression. “And you? Are you improving, do you think?”
“Yeah! I think I’ve been a lot better, thank the gods.” The sword dancer picks up her cup and sips from it, savouring the taste of Mother Lillian’s tea — peach, a hint of raspberry, and the sensation of joy from playing on a swing on a warm spring afternoon — and then letting out a grateful sigh.
There is, however, a pregnant pause between the two of them.
“There’s just a few things on my mind, though.”
Velania sits back, studying Zola, the glint in her eyes indicating she knows the warrior only too well. “Oh?”
“I…” She sighs again, sounding frustrated this time. “This is so hard to articulate. I’ve been hanging out with… with this man. He’s great. A bit of a ladies’ man, but whatever. But… But I don’t know. I think I still feel… guilt…”
Velania’s voice is gentle and careful. “Guilt because you feel you are… moving on too quickly?”
“No.” Zola’s head turns to look at Velania with despairing eyes. “It’s got nothing to do with Ophanim. It’s… It’s about Marto.”
“About Marto?” Velania frowns sadly. “How are things between you and him, right now? Have you been in touch since we went to see Themis?”
“No, I haven’t seen him at all, actually…” she replies, a little crestfallen. “It’s just that… Looking back now, it’s obvious that he had a… a thing for me. And… I liked him too, to be perfectly honest, but when Ophanim came into my life, I just…” Her voice trails off.
Velania nods and cradles her tea for a while. Her voice becomes wistful. “When I first got to know you, you were both very close. And then came Phlegethos, and the two of you had both been… I don’t know how to put this, but in some ways… I can’t help but feel that they won.”
Zola scoffs quietly. “No, you’re right about that.” She glances away from her, gazing out the window. “I may have killed him, but he won the battle.”
"And that was true for Marto and Adhyël, too…” Velania trails off and stares into space. After a while, she glances at Zola. “There’s a sad old Elvish fable that says, ‘Healing does not mean a return to the past. No matter where your heart lies, your path leads only forward.’ It’s not the most comforting of proverbs when you’re heartbroken, is it? But in a way, it's helped me recently. I don’t really know how to react to you feeling guilty toward Marto. But however the future of your relationship with him may be, you will be grateful if you focus on yourself first. On your own healing.”
Velania leans forward and clasps Zola’s hand. “It’s what he’s doing. He made a wise decision to get himself away from here for a while. And he’s still finding his way back. Much like you. Much like me.”
Zola casts her pensive gaze down at their joined hands and nods slowly. “You’re right. I suppose it’s partly grief for what could have been. Why can’t I choose to be with the people who would be good for me? Why did Ophanim set my heart aflame instead of him?” She quickly wipes away a tear welling up in the corner of her eye with the heel of her palm. “I really do have terrible taste in men,” she laughs.
“Oh, Zola…” Velania wipes her own eye and squeezes her friend’s hand sympathetically. “That’s exactly why I told you to not do these things alone. It’s been such a tough few months, hasn’t it?”
“It has, but thankfully it’s getting better…” she murmurs, laying her head on Velania’s shoulder.
“I’m glad to hear that,” Velania says, stroking Zola’s hair. “I wish it would get better a lot faster than this… But just as often, I wish I could undo the last six months and do it right this time…” Velania inclines her head into Zola’s. “Hah,” she snorts, “the foolish, idle daydreams of a child. This is why I’m not working at the moment. My head is all over the place constantly. I can’t tell the difference between heartbreak, sadness, anger and hope at the moment. If Je’Sathriel were here to hear all this, he wouldn’t be quite so patient with me, I’m sure…”
“Oh, Velania, you just need a little more time for yourself.” Zola slowly sits back up and breathes in and out heavily. “The last six months isn’t all that’s on my mind, though. There’s been a notice on the boards lately, about a diplomatic trip to Aeschira…”
“To the Underdark?” Velania's eyes widen, and then she tries to place the name. “I’m not sure when the Dawnlands last were in contact with them. Were they part of the Aegis Accords?”
“No, they weren’t. I don’t know if the Dawnlands were ever in contact with them. It’s a huge drow city about a week’s travel from here. It’s…” Zola hesitates for a second. “It’s kind of where I was born. Very close to it.”
“Is it a place you wish to see again? I have to confess, I don’t know much about individual drow cities, so I am not sure how hostile or friendly each of them are to the Dawnlands — nor whether their politics and mores are… compatible with our own.”
“I… I don’t know. But I can tell you that their mores are certainly not like ours. I don’t understand why the Council would want to have relations with a place like that.”
Sensing a deepening tension in her friend, Velania exhales heavily. “Hmm… During the invasion, Fort Ettin made all number of alliances that surprised me. You seem particularly wary of this pairing, though. Is that because there is something more… personal for you with Aeschira?”
Zola stares down at the cup of tea gradually growing cold on the table.
“My parents — my birth parents — were murdered for their faith in Eilistraee. Before they died, they made a deal with the hags of Haspar Knoll for me to be protected. That’s how I ended up in the Feywild as a baby. That’s… why I’m even here at this moment, alive and talking to you.”
The aasimar listens quietly to Zola, her face dark and solemn. “Oh, sister. I am so sorry. I can’t imagine what it must feel like for you, knowing we’re dealing with such a people.”
Her breath is heavy for a while and she regards Zola warily. “And if you did go back, or meet Aeschirans again, are you worried about what might happen?”
“I… really haven’t the faintest clue. I don’t actually know very much about Aeschira or the Schira Sprawl. Isn't that odd?”
Velania’s brow relaxes upon hearing Zola’s uncertainty. “Odd? Maybe not — you really haven’t spent any time among their people.” She taps her flower crown and glances at Zola’s eldercross with a smile. “You are of the Witching Court as much as anything, now… But it would be understandable if your curiosity were mounting about your ancestral heritage now, though…”
A shadow passes over her face, a difficult combination of memory and emotions: guilt, shame, confusion. She shakes her head and looks back at Zola hurriedly. “Do you know anyone with ties to Aeschira? Perhaps you’re feeling it is time for you to consider whether you would like to reckon with your history?”
“I think I might…” Zola catches the brief mix of emotions that went through Velania and gives her a worried look. “Is everything alright?”
“It’s fine,” Velania says quickly. Then in the silence that follows, she shrugs, too embarrassed to make eye contact. “Well, maybe it isn’t. I don’t know. It’s something Je’Sathriel said when we saw him. I… I have mostly human and elven blood, but on my mother’s side, I have a great-grandfather who’s, well, of celestial origin. Hence the…” She gestures vaguely. “… you know. Well, I didn’t think anything of it. And then Je’Sathriel turns up and starts telling me there’s something not right, that I deserve better… And, well, I don’t really know a great deal about it… but he says I ought to be doing something about it…”
Her face is a knot of confusion. “I don’t know what to make of it. I have parents already, and I love them to death. But Je’Sathriel basically told me my great-grandfather should be on the scene too, but that he is a dick, to put it frankly. But I barely know the man, or what I’m supposed to do with that…”
“What does Je’Sathriel want you to do about it? Have you even met your great-grandfather?”
Velania’s gaze becomes sad and distant. “Sachrael. He visited me often in my dreams when I was a child. I’d tell him stories and show him some basic cantrip magic I’d mastered. And he’d laugh and clap and lavish me with praise, and he’d share his own gossip and stories in return. His stories were always so captivating. And it was tremendously flattering for an unremarkable, sheltered little convent girl getting this secret divine visitor doting on me. But in my late teens, he grew less talkative. Like I was finally proving what a disappointment I was to him. And he visited less and less often…” She sighs. “People grow apart, people are busy, people learn to stop being impressed by you — or so I assumed.” She turns to Zola. “I guess he just has more important things on his plate than constantly fussing over me. And I’ve never really known him that well, so I’d never given it a lot of thought until Je’Sathriel spoke about it. He told me I can change this, but it’s up to me to decide what I want to do…”
Zola’s expression mirrors Velania's own sorrow. “It makes me sad to hear about families growing apart. Do you want to reconnect with him?”
“That’s what I’m still working out. He’s family so I… guess so? People can change their minds about you, can’t they…?” Her voice trails off, betraying the lack of faith she has in her own words. She taps her fingers on her teacup, deep in thought. “I should at least ask him about it, right? He deserves to be heard. Even if he is just busy with other, more important tasks…”
“I suppose he might have a reason for it, and it sounds like you’re never gonna stop wondering until you do hear him out. If he’s really a dickhead like The Jackal said and he stopped visiting just because he lost interest in you, then he’s not worth the effort, Velania… But there’s really only one way to find out.”
“Je’Sathriel said he could just find me another guardian angel. But you’re right: I’d feel bad unless I at least talked to Sachrael about it. He’s family; maybe it’s what he wants me to do. Give me another chance to prove myself to him. To show him my worth…”
“You don't have to show anyone your worth, Velania. You’re so full of worth and if Sachrael can't see that, he can go screw himself.”
“Hey.” Velania forces her face into a grin and squeezes Zola’s arm. “Thank you.”
The aasimar stands up to pour the rest of the tea out for them. The top notes of fruit have mellowed and the essence of spring seems to have blossomed over the course of the hour. “No rash decisions. That’s what I’ve told myself. It’s only been two months since Coll died. And three since Ophanim died. You and I, we’re entitled to more time. Especially because families are always messy — and that’s a truth as old as time!”
She sits down next to Zola and raises her cup in a solemn gesture. “But if you decide to reconnect with your heritage, you only need to ask and I’ll be there. You know that, right?”
Zola gives her a wide smile and likewise raises her cup to her. “Of course. It’s true that our path leads only forward, but perhaps… in order to keep moving forward, sometimes we have to look over our shoulder.”
Velania nods to this and her gaze grows distant again. She takes a slow draft of tea. “Speaking of the past… how do you feel about Themis, now the dust has settled on our journey the other week? On reflection, have you received the answers you sought?”
“Not exactly. The will of the gods is beyond our ken, but I choose to believe that Themis fulfilled her destiny, and repugnant as she was, she has set me on the path to my own destiny as the gods willed it. I’ve made my peace with that.”
As she nods, a combination of pity and pain flash through Velania’s eyes, recalling the prophet from the mountains and her bitterness. “If you are at peace, I am glad to hear it. Her words have been accompanied by more than enough suffering. But what is it you see of your own destiny?”
Once again, Zola gazes out the window at the clear blue skies above. “I only know that I have been put on this earth for a greater purpose,” she says in a quiet and steady voice. “I hope to be the divine instrument with which the gods use to enact justice in the world.”
"Eilistraee guide your path," Velania murmurs in Elvish. "And I shall seek the way beside you."
Zola smiles warmly at her in response.
The priestess studies Zola closely with a wry grin, tempered with reservation. “So what is the deal with this new man? Don’t think I let that just slip by unnoticed.”
“Oh, him?” And just like that, it’s back to regular old Zola. “He’s… an interesting guy. He’s one of the people who helped bring Silvia back. He has a dark past, but I think, deep down, he's got a good heart.”
Velania relaxes somewhat at this. “Well, if he helped Silvia… Lady knows, you deserve someone kind, Zola. You do know you’re skimming a lot of details here — which is fine if you still aren’t ready to talk about it yet. But what kind of ‘hanging out’ are we talking about here?”
“Oh, nothing steamy, I promise. I just follow him around town and we talk. Talk about gods, morality, philosophy, the drow way of life…”
“He sounds like an erudite man. But you… follow him?”
“Yeah. Why?”
“Zola, could you…” Velania starts to speak, then falters and rethinks. She starts again with a calmer voice. “I’m asking because you know I love you, and I am looking out for you. You know that, right?”
“Yes, of course, sister. What’s the matter?”
Velania speaks methodically and carefully through her thoughts. “You said earlier, ‘I really do have terrible taste in men.’ Firstly, I do not believe that’s set in stone, even if you’re still hurting from what happened. But I do think it’s fair that, at least at the moment, you do doubt your own decision-making. So just… don’t forget you can talk to me before taking any big steps.” She shuffles closer to Zola and takes her hand and speaks very gently, her voice trembling with emotion. “Whatever’s going on for me — right now or any other time in my life — I’m always going to worry about my sister.”
“Aw Velania…” Zola stands up and embraces the aasimar tightly. How lucky she is to have people in her life who care so much. “Yes. I promise to do just that.”
Co-written with Velania Kalugina 💚🤍
Random fey tea flavour by Anthony 🍵
—Dante Alighieri, La Vita Nuova
In the mid-afternoon summer sun, Velania’s lunar, silvery aura is all but absent. Wearing a loose-fitting tunic dress, dark purple with embroidered pink flowers on the hems, her face is slightly sunburnt with a hint of freckles, and her usually immaculate hair is tousled and pulled up into a messy bun. She has a basket of wildflowers on her arm with one of them poked into her hair.
She sees Zola approaching the temple from a distance, in her usual sleeveless white dress and The Twins strapped around her waist, and breaks into a large grin, waving enthusiastically.
“Wow, Velania!” Zola exclaims when she gets closer. “You look great! You look so… relaxed!”
“Haha!” She hugs Zola tightly. “I don’t have many duties this week, so I’ve been out of the city this morning, looking for some flowers. I found a nice creek to explore and I had a swim, and then I sat under a tree for breakfast, and then I… Oh wait, this is for you…” She pulls out a stunning white-and-pink poppy and leans over to place it in Zola’s hair, who grins happily at this new adornment. “It’s so good to see you! Yes, I’ve been relaxing a bit. It’s been the right time of year to get outside, so I’ve been making the most of it.” She takes Zola by the hands. “Zola, how have you been?”
“Oh me?” The drow woman tilts her head up skywards and lets out a big, dramatic half-sigh, half-groan. “Just when I thought my life is calming down, things are starting to get crazy again!”
Velania’s face falls gently. “Oh, no. Sounds like we should get the kettle on and sit down somewhere quiet.”
It’s a quiet time of day inside the Temple of Selûne, and the hallways are cool and calm. Velania leads Zola to her chamber, making small talk about the flowers she’s collected, and Zola occupies her hands with making a flower braid as they wait for the water to boil. After ten minutes, the kettle is whistling merrily.
“There’s a necromancer wandering around the Witching Court and the Dawnlands causing trouble,” Zola says as she picks up the kettle and starts pouring water into the teacups she prepared for them, “and she’s probably a lich by now, too.”
“What kind of trouble? Are people in danger?” Velania frowns at her friend. “I’d heard vague talk of some kind of prophecy about the undead, but I didn’t realise it was already taking effect… But the Witching Court is a powerful, resourceful place. I’ve seen their power in action. Queen Nicnevin must know how to handle an incursion, surely…”
“Oh, the Queen’s people are handling it for sure. But I heard the necromancer’s also been spotted here in Daring Heights. At the cemetery.”
Velania sits up. Alert. “So we have to defend ourselves again…” she mutters. “If Rholor were back, he would know how to handle the undead, I’m certain of it… but he’s still…”
Zola puts the kettle away and sits back down next to Velania by the table. “He’s still not back, huh? I wonder what’s causing him to take his time…”
“Je’Sathriel made it sound like he was choosing to take it slow, didn’t he? I don’t understand the process — perhaps it’s particularly difficult to have one’s body remade, for all I know?”
“Oh, did you hear that Silvia’s back? And it happened in, like, an instant.” Zola snaps her fingers for effect. “… kind of.”
Velania’s jaw drops. “She’s back? But… Do you know how?”
“So you really haven’t heard? She was resurrected! Apparently Je’Sathriel gathered up the most powerful mages in the Dawnlands and Sorrel and they got her soul back and a new body for her.”
“I’ve been a bit out of contact for a couple of weeks.” Velania flushes. Then starts blinking tears away. “I don’t know what to say. That’s… that’s… I owe her and Sorrel a visit,” she says, more solidly.
Zola gives her a kind, gentle smile. “Yeah, I think you should go and visit them in their house,” she says, giving her friend’s shoulder a squeeze.
Velania’s voice trembles and she speaks absent-mindedly. “I’ve needed my own time. My own space. But it means you miss the important things…” She turns to Zola and smiles faintly. “Yes, I’ll go see her as soon as possible.”
“Oh Velania.” Zola’s arms move to wrap around her shoulders. “Don’t scold yourself for that. Sorrel and Silvia would never blame you for taking time for yourself.”
Velania leans into the hug. “I thought it had just been a few days, but the last time I saw her was when I saw you. And that was… Oh wow, that was a whole month ago.”
“Time flies! But hey, this time off has done wonders for you, Vee.” Zola takes the finished flower braid and crowns it on Velania’s silver-haired head, smiling brightly.
Velania smiles back at her. “It’s a slow process. I’ve had some good days and some bad days. And I guess that’s going to continue for a while. Sometimes it hits you when you least expect it, and you don’t really understand what triggered it.” Zola nods furtively in agreement. “Today’s been a good day, though. Despite the fact that I’m a bit tearful at your news.”
She sits back and studies Zola a moment, scrutinising her expression. “And you? Are you improving, do you think?”
“Yeah! I think I’ve been a lot better, thank the gods.” The sword dancer picks up her cup and sips from it, savouring the taste of Mother Lillian’s tea — peach, a hint of raspberry, and the sensation of joy from playing on a swing on a warm spring afternoon — and then letting out a grateful sigh.
There is, however, a pregnant pause between the two of them.
“There’s just a few things on my mind, though.”
Velania sits back, studying Zola, the glint in her eyes indicating she knows the warrior only too well. “Oh?”
“I…” She sighs again, sounding frustrated this time. “This is so hard to articulate. I’ve been hanging out with… with this man. He’s great. A bit of a ladies’ man, but whatever. But… But I don’t know. I think I still feel… guilt…”
Velania’s voice is gentle and careful. “Guilt because you feel you are… moving on too quickly?”
“No.” Zola’s head turns to look at Velania with despairing eyes. “It’s got nothing to do with Ophanim. It’s… It’s about Marto.”
“About Marto?” Velania frowns sadly. “How are things between you and him, right now? Have you been in touch since we went to see Themis?”
“No, I haven’t seen him at all, actually…” she replies, a little crestfallen. “It’s just that… Looking back now, it’s obvious that he had a… a thing for me. And… I liked him too, to be perfectly honest, but when Ophanim came into my life, I just…” Her voice trails off.
Velania nods and cradles her tea for a while. Her voice becomes wistful. “When I first got to know you, you were both very close. And then came Phlegethos, and the two of you had both been… I don’t know how to put this, but in some ways… I can’t help but feel that they won.”
Zola scoffs quietly. “No, you’re right about that.” She glances away from her, gazing out the window. “I may have killed him, but he won the battle.”
"And that was true for Marto and Adhyël, too…” Velania trails off and stares into space. After a while, she glances at Zola. “There’s a sad old Elvish fable that says, ‘Healing does not mean a return to the past. No matter where your heart lies, your path leads only forward.’ It’s not the most comforting of proverbs when you’re heartbroken, is it? But in a way, it's helped me recently. I don’t really know how to react to you feeling guilty toward Marto. But however the future of your relationship with him may be, you will be grateful if you focus on yourself first. On your own healing.”
Velania leans forward and clasps Zola’s hand. “It’s what he’s doing. He made a wise decision to get himself away from here for a while. And he’s still finding his way back. Much like you. Much like me.”
Zola casts her pensive gaze down at their joined hands and nods slowly. “You’re right. I suppose it’s partly grief for what could have been. Why can’t I choose to be with the people who would be good for me? Why did Ophanim set my heart aflame instead of him?” She quickly wipes away a tear welling up in the corner of her eye with the heel of her palm. “I really do have terrible taste in men,” she laughs.
“Oh, Zola…” Velania wipes her own eye and squeezes her friend’s hand sympathetically. “That’s exactly why I told you to not do these things alone. It’s been such a tough few months, hasn’t it?”
“It has, but thankfully it’s getting better…” she murmurs, laying her head on Velania’s shoulder.
“I’m glad to hear that,” Velania says, stroking Zola’s hair. “I wish it would get better a lot faster than this… But just as often, I wish I could undo the last six months and do it right this time…” Velania inclines her head into Zola’s. “Hah,” she snorts, “the foolish, idle daydreams of a child. This is why I’m not working at the moment. My head is all over the place constantly. I can’t tell the difference between heartbreak, sadness, anger and hope at the moment. If Je’Sathriel were here to hear all this, he wouldn’t be quite so patient with me, I’m sure…”
“Oh, Velania, you just need a little more time for yourself.” Zola slowly sits back up and breathes in and out heavily. “The last six months isn’t all that’s on my mind, though. There’s been a notice on the boards lately, about a diplomatic trip to Aeschira…”
“To the Underdark?” Velania's eyes widen, and then she tries to place the name. “I’m not sure when the Dawnlands last were in contact with them. Were they part of the Aegis Accords?”
“No, they weren’t. I don’t know if the Dawnlands were ever in contact with them. It’s a huge drow city about a week’s travel from here. It’s…” Zola hesitates for a second. “It’s kind of where I was born. Very close to it.”
“Is it a place you wish to see again? I have to confess, I don’t know much about individual drow cities, so I am not sure how hostile or friendly each of them are to the Dawnlands — nor whether their politics and mores are… compatible with our own.”
“I… I don’t know. But I can tell you that their mores are certainly not like ours. I don’t understand why the Council would want to have relations with a place like that.”
Sensing a deepening tension in her friend, Velania exhales heavily. “Hmm… During the invasion, Fort Ettin made all number of alliances that surprised me. You seem particularly wary of this pairing, though. Is that because there is something more… personal for you with Aeschira?”
Zola stares down at the cup of tea gradually growing cold on the table.
“My parents — my birth parents — were murdered for their faith in Eilistraee. Before they died, they made a deal with the hags of Haspar Knoll for me to be protected. That’s how I ended up in the Feywild as a baby. That’s… why I’m even here at this moment, alive and talking to you.”
The aasimar listens quietly to Zola, her face dark and solemn. “Oh, sister. I am so sorry. I can’t imagine what it must feel like for you, knowing we’re dealing with such a people.”
Her breath is heavy for a while and she regards Zola warily. “And if you did go back, or meet Aeschirans again, are you worried about what might happen?”
“I… really haven’t the faintest clue. I don’t actually know very much about Aeschira or the Schira Sprawl. Isn't that odd?”
Velania’s brow relaxes upon hearing Zola’s uncertainty. “Odd? Maybe not — you really haven’t spent any time among their people.” She taps her flower crown and glances at Zola’s eldercross with a smile. “You are of the Witching Court as much as anything, now… But it would be understandable if your curiosity were mounting about your ancestral heritage now, though…”
A shadow passes over her face, a difficult combination of memory and emotions: guilt, shame, confusion. She shakes her head and looks back at Zola hurriedly. “Do you know anyone with ties to Aeschira? Perhaps you’re feeling it is time for you to consider whether you would like to reckon with your history?”
“I think I might…” Zola catches the brief mix of emotions that went through Velania and gives her a worried look. “Is everything alright?”
“It’s fine,” Velania says quickly. Then in the silence that follows, she shrugs, too embarrassed to make eye contact. “Well, maybe it isn’t. I don’t know. It’s something Je’Sathriel said when we saw him. I… I have mostly human and elven blood, but on my mother’s side, I have a great-grandfather who’s, well, of celestial origin. Hence the…” She gestures vaguely. “… you know. Well, I didn’t think anything of it. And then Je’Sathriel turns up and starts telling me there’s something not right, that I deserve better… And, well, I don’t really know a great deal about it… but he says I ought to be doing something about it…”
Her face is a knot of confusion. “I don’t know what to make of it. I have parents already, and I love them to death. But Je’Sathriel basically told me my great-grandfather should be on the scene too, but that he is a dick, to put it frankly. But I barely know the man, or what I’m supposed to do with that…”
“What does Je’Sathriel want you to do about it? Have you even met your great-grandfather?”
Velania’s gaze becomes sad and distant. “Sachrael. He visited me often in my dreams when I was a child. I’d tell him stories and show him some basic cantrip magic I’d mastered. And he’d laugh and clap and lavish me with praise, and he’d share his own gossip and stories in return. His stories were always so captivating. And it was tremendously flattering for an unremarkable, sheltered little convent girl getting this secret divine visitor doting on me. But in my late teens, he grew less talkative. Like I was finally proving what a disappointment I was to him. And he visited less and less often…” She sighs. “People grow apart, people are busy, people learn to stop being impressed by you — or so I assumed.” She turns to Zola. “I guess he just has more important things on his plate than constantly fussing over me. And I’ve never really known him that well, so I’d never given it a lot of thought until Je’Sathriel spoke about it. He told me I can change this, but it’s up to me to decide what I want to do…”
Zola’s expression mirrors Velania's own sorrow. “It makes me sad to hear about families growing apart. Do you want to reconnect with him?”
“That’s what I’m still working out. He’s family so I… guess so? People can change their minds about you, can’t they…?” Her voice trails off, betraying the lack of faith she has in her own words. She taps her fingers on her teacup, deep in thought. “I should at least ask him about it, right? He deserves to be heard. Even if he is just busy with other, more important tasks…”
“I suppose he might have a reason for it, and it sounds like you’re never gonna stop wondering until you do hear him out. If he’s really a dickhead like The Jackal said and he stopped visiting just because he lost interest in you, then he’s not worth the effort, Velania… But there’s really only one way to find out.”
“Je’Sathriel said he could just find me another guardian angel. But you’re right: I’d feel bad unless I at least talked to Sachrael about it. He’s family; maybe it’s what he wants me to do. Give me another chance to prove myself to him. To show him my worth…”
“You don't have to show anyone your worth, Velania. You’re so full of worth and if Sachrael can't see that, he can go screw himself.”
“Hey.” Velania forces her face into a grin and squeezes Zola’s arm. “Thank you.”
The aasimar stands up to pour the rest of the tea out for them. The top notes of fruit have mellowed and the essence of spring seems to have blossomed over the course of the hour. “No rash decisions. That’s what I’ve told myself. It’s only been two months since Coll died. And three since Ophanim died. You and I, we’re entitled to more time. Especially because families are always messy — and that’s a truth as old as time!”
She sits down next to Zola and raises her cup in a solemn gesture. “But if you decide to reconnect with your heritage, you only need to ask and I’ll be there. You know that, right?”
Zola gives her a wide smile and likewise raises her cup to her. “Of course. It’s true that our path leads only forward, but perhaps… in order to keep moving forward, sometimes we have to look over our shoulder.”
Velania nods to this and her gaze grows distant again. She takes a slow draft of tea. “Speaking of the past… how do you feel about Themis, now the dust has settled on our journey the other week? On reflection, have you received the answers you sought?”
“Not exactly. The will of the gods is beyond our ken, but I choose to believe that Themis fulfilled her destiny, and repugnant as she was, she has set me on the path to my own destiny as the gods willed it. I’ve made my peace with that.”
As she nods, a combination of pity and pain flash through Velania’s eyes, recalling the prophet from the mountains and her bitterness. “If you are at peace, I am glad to hear it. Her words have been accompanied by more than enough suffering. But what is it you see of your own destiny?”
Once again, Zola gazes out the window at the clear blue skies above. “I only know that I have been put on this earth for a greater purpose,” she says in a quiet and steady voice. “I hope to be the divine instrument with which the gods use to enact justice in the world.”
"Eilistraee guide your path," Velania murmurs in Elvish. "And I shall seek the way beside you."
Zola smiles warmly at her in response.
The priestess studies Zola closely with a wry grin, tempered with reservation. “So what is the deal with this new man? Don’t think I let that just slip by unnoticed.”
“Oh, him?” And just like that, it’s back to regular old Zola. “He’s… an interesting guy. He’s one of the people who helped bring Silvia back. He has a dark past, but I think, deep down, he's got a good heart.”
Velania relaxes somewhat at this. “Well, if he helped Silvia… Lady knows, you deserve someone kind, Zola. You do know you’re skimming a lot of details here — which is fine if you still aren’t ready to talk about it yet. But what kind of ‘hanging out’ are we talking about here?”
“Oh, nothing steamy, I promise. I just follow him around town and we talk. Talk about gods, morality, philosophy, the drow way of life…”
“He sounds like an erudite man. But you… follow him?”
“Yeah. Why?”
“Zola, could you…” Velania starts to speak, then falters and rethinks. She starts again with a calmer voice. “I’m asking because you know I love you, and I am looking out for you. You know that, right?”
“Yes, of course, sister. What’s the matter?”
Velania speaks methodically and carefully through her thoughts. “You said earlier, ‘I really do have terrible taste in men.’ Firstly, I do not believe that’s set in stone, even if you’re still hurting from what happened. But I do think it’s fair that, at least at the moment, you do doubt your own decision-making. So just… don’t forget you can talk to me before taking any big steps.” She shuffles closer to Zola and takes her hand and speaks very gently, her voice trembling with emotion. “Whatever’s going on for me — right now or any other time in my life — I’m always going to worry about my sister.”
“Aw Velania…” Zola stands up and embraces the aasimar tightly. How lucky she is to have people in her life who care so much. “Yes. I promise to do just that.”
Co-written with Velania Kalugina 💚🤍
Random fey tea flavour by Anthony 🍵